Stillness isn’t surrender.
It’s survival.

I’ve grown with the pain. Not around it.

I’ve become the place that holds it.

The bark didn’t cover me.
It became me.

I had a dream.

I looked into a mirror, and my face was cypress bark.
Not a mask—something that had grown in.
The eyes weren’t mine.
But I knew it was still me.

My hair had become leaves.
Every color of every season.
Lichen bloomed across my skin like memory that wouldn’t let go.

I wasn’t afraid.
I wasn’t moving.
I was watching.

I was rooted in a lake—ankle-deep in still water, stuck in it.
Above me, something circled.
Huge. Silent.
A monster made of pressure.

It didn’t scream.
It just took—
the light, the breath, the color from everything.

And I stood there.

I didn’t fight.
I didn’t run.
I just… stayed.

I made this image after the dream.
It’s not a recreation.
It’s what I felt.

The eye still watching.
The bark still growing.
The silence still speaking.

Grief doesn’t always hit like a storm.
Sometimes it hovers.
Sometimes it drains you slowly, until you’re just a shape in the water.

This dream didn’t give me answers.
It didn’t give me power.

It gave me stillness.

And somehow—
that was enough.
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